Monday, June 13, 2011

I stand, I'm a stander

You learned how to pull yourself up this weekend!  You are very proud of yourself, and excited to the point that you can barely sleep.  Every time we put you in your crib, you see the wooden slats around you and you reach up and climb to your knees and then to your feet, and then you smile this huge smile and proclaim, "EEEEEEeeeee", which is your way of saying, "look Mama, I am a stander!  I stand!"  You do this every chance you get.

The only problem is that you don't know how to get down.  So you get up and look out over the edge of your crib, and then...you get tired.  Then you cry, and I come and lay you back down and remind you that you have to sleep in order to have enough energy to grow and learn.  But those wooden slats are just begging for you to climb them again, and so you roll over and pull yourself up again, only to realize how tired you are once more.

It's hard to grow, because you don't learn all the things you need to know at the same time.  Sometimes you learn to stand before you learn to get down again.  You learn how to push yourself before you learn how to nap. You learn to love before you learn how to guard your heart. In life, you'll want to be balanced, but with growth coming in spurts, there will be times when you can't be.  And that's ok - learning the other side of the coin will come soon enough. 

For now, we're pretty darn proud of your standing-ness.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Letters to Allegra

Hi Baby Girl.

You are eight whole months old already.  I can hardly believe how quickly you're growing and changing.  It seems like you learn something new every day.  Getting to know you has been one of the most amazing things I've ever experienced, and I've experienced a lot of fantastic things in life so far.  Thanks for making me a Mama, Ali.  I love you.

This place will be between you and me, a place for us to know each other.  One of the things I hope to be able to do for you as your Mama is to help you to be sure of yourself, of who you are and of what fiber you are made.  It's easy to lose track of that sometimes; I know this first-hand.  I also know how quickly time passes and how sometimes we can forget even the most incredible of days.  I want to help you capture the moments of your life and maybe help you to grasp how amazingly good life is, even when it's not easy. 

Allegra Joy, you are my daughter, and there's not a thing in the world that I love more than your Daddy and you.  We are a pretty sweet team, the three of us, and we're going to have a whole lot of adventures together.

I love you,
Mama